life is grand

Life is so awesome right now.  Im almost finished with my finals for this semester, so that means that the only thing awaiting my attention is summer in SoCal.  I have been hanging out with some new peeps at school, and that has been AMAZING.  Some doors are closing, but many more are opening.  I predict that next semester and this summer are going to be some of the best times of my life.  I will only be working between 25 and 30 hrs a week, and Im only paying half rent so that should leave me with a lot of means to reach my end.  The end of every situation should be enjoyment, fullness of experience, and thats what I plan on doing.  A LOT.  See you on the other side.

peace and love ya'll

I got me some finals to do, so in celebration of these finals I am going to hit the local dive with some of my closest friends.

I dont even know if anyone reads this anymore, but Im going to act like they do.

This weekend is going to rock my face off.  Im going to this rad birthday with some "cool kids" that I really want to be part of their group, lol, its like junior high all over again... seriously, it is.  Im excited that Will will be there, hes got this friend... and I hope some other peeps are there like Shannon.  I dont want to be there with like 2 people I know, that could be awkward.

Im off to find my connection with the phat hook up... whatever that means.  Alright kids, holla back at me.

"You have a calling, and signs are emerging around you that reinforce that fact. People are giving you feedback that is genuine -- they're not just praising you for the heck of it! Have faith in yourself and understand that you're capable of amazing things. The worst mistake you can make today is to limit yourself. This applies to new relationships, career challenges and even business opportunities. Act on your ideas and climb out of your shell..."

This was my horoscope today.  I put NO weight in horoscopes what so ever, but It kinda freaked me out because it was everything that I have needed to hear lately.  It contains things that I feel everyday, things that Im either too affraid to admit to myself or Im affraid it would seem as if I were being pretentious if I talked about it as openly as I want. 

The truth is that I know I am capable of amazing things, I just dont have the foundational support I need to encourage me in my endeavours.  It sucks  that I had to be told this by a fake horoscope.  I think back on my life, and I wonder how far along I would be if I had had friends and family who possitively supported and challenged me.  Instead I have always had people who try to bring me down.  People who scoffed at my ideas and told me I could never make a difference.  I no longer believe that to be true.  I look back now and it was all out of jealousy Im sure.  Whatever it may have been, I will no longer tollerate it.

So, Im off to change the world and I have a lot of work to do.  Those who are not for me are against me, and I pitty those who would stand against me.  For those who would stand against me, you will not be standing long.  My ideals and love for people are much too big to be stopped by you, and if they are not, then by god I am. 

Another birth day came and went.  I am now closer to 30 than to 20.  Thats a really depressing thought.  Its amazing that I can think back on parts of my life, very vivid memories, that are a year older than my girlfriend type person.  Its weird.

I should get my car back either tomorrow or the next day then its off to Vegas for Easter, after I get back from Vegas I get to go back to OK for a week to spend time with my new favorite person on earth.  I have never gone home just to see a girl.  I am kinda nervous about that, but VERY excited.

Thats all I got kids, hope this finds you well.

Peace and love

Today was a grand day full of ex's, bad food experiences, and car wrecks.  God I hate it here so much!  You know that scene from terminator 2 where the nuke hits LA and all the people are blown to hell?  I watch that scene every morning when I wake up just so that I have hope to go on with the day.

I cannot wait to be back in OK.